Sobriety killed the cat.

2012-03-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

(proof that my cheapskate improvised colour gradient cellophane screen works)

just sprayed my room with copious amounts of baygon cause i saw ants am now sitting here just taking it all in with deep breaths cause i'm too fat to move mm i feel my insides curling up and dying

2012-03-04T10:12:00.005+08:00

sometimes i feel as though i'm not angry enough for muay thai usually during training i think of how i'd look just shadow-boxing into empty space or attacking the punching bag that is more than twice my size and start giggling and then my coach looks at me with this glare that makes me feel i've insulted his ancestors and so i think of random thingabobbies to get myself pumped up and angry (for example if during warm up the skipping rope thwacks my toes i take up a personal vendetta against it the rest of the duration of the lesson)

really nice packaging on my jiejie's massive new make-up case which led me to consider how much the packaging affects how much i'd want to buy a product for all i really am is a goldfish or a guppy ok yes i am a guppy (they die easy) scavenging around in the fishbowl of Consumerism

2012-02-28T09:55:00.002+08:00

"people say that hipsters listen to like underground music but that's so mainstream like everyone listens to underground music now so i listen to like animal mating calls"

2012-02-28T09:31:00.003+08:00

while making the bed i folded my blanket into a giant triangle instead of a square and it looked a lot like a sandwich now i hunger

2012-02-27T20:41:00.004+08:00

man i need to find friends who hate bathing as much as i do so we can be smelly together all the time. i think one of the nicest feelings in the world has to be waking up to (or falling asleep beside) people you love and maybe then in army if you get to be in the same platoon with people you like then army would be more a giant slumber party than the biggest shithole ever

2012-02-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

you can't spell smothering without mothering DAS RITE

2012-02-23T18:29:00.005+08:00

whenever the words "lesbian" "balls" (taken entirely out of context) and "pedophile" pop out in class the boys in my secondary one classes turn into a bunch of giggly girls although now that i think about it i am not entirely sure why those words were mentioned in class at all

2012-02-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

2012-02-20T21:04:00.001+08:00

a totally irrelevant picture but i miss this and the afternoon sun was gorgeous mm i have to write this down before i lose grasp of even wisps of it again and codeine velvet club playing in the background isn't helping anyway i am just so amazed with the (possibly very shallow and non-christian) realization that in Genesis 32: 22-31 when jacob says "I will not let you go unless you bless me" it was not in the tone of an empowered haughty man but rather one that was desperately pleading from one entirely disarmed and brought to the end of his tether by just a touch from God le big papa in the sky and it is entirely heart-wrenching that his simple prayer, however unseeming, is one of mercy and contrition (i also remember something being said about effective prayer being prayer that resonates with both the people and promises of God and how only selfless prayer legitimizes boldness in asking and receiving) which is articulated further by his stalwartly simple reply of "jacob" to the man's "what is your name" (aka WHO ARE YOU, REALLY) and his consequent rechristening as israel is just so incredibly significant and poignant what is this i don't even omg somebody make a movie (or a television series considering how long it is) out of the bible quick quick i would sit my ass down all day just to watch it T.T

2012-02-19T21:54:00.003+08:00

wow when did we all become so attractive. some thingabobbies i want now include a perfume called teen spirit so i can sniff myself and be all like "wow that smells like teen spirit" and laser beams from my eyes so i could beam out lasers of shame whenever people pretend to be asleep on the mrt while warming the reserved seats with their bums

2012-02-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

it has recently come to my attention that we've had kushy for six years which in cat years means she's about forty two which explains why she's so angsty all the time (probably undergoing some sort of feline mid-life crisis)

2012-02-15T21:27:00.004+08:00

"When I was five years old I saw an insect that had been eaten by ants and of which nothing remained except the shell. Through the holes in its anatomy one could see the sky. Every time I wish to attain purity I look at the sky through flesh."

- Salvador Dali

2012-02-15T21:12:00.001+08:00

clearly i am the running man

terrorizing the streets at close to five in the morning carrying a bag full of empty snack wrappers and an unfinished carton of granola

ON THE PROWL i have no idea what i was trying to achieve save for a jilted landing after jumping off the ledge

getting frisky in the bedroom~

beautiful charming etcetra etcetra

reliving glory days of being flamboyant in front of the unrelenting neoprint machine cameras

the other two members of the lonely hearts club on together alone day

so many other thingabobbies that have happened that i would like to chronicle (stupid movie that is by the way) but they fall out of my mind too much too fast nowadays during my free periods in school i rush down to the canteen to get my daily bread the heavenly slice of pandan cake that has been my sustenance the past year or so and rush back up to the staffroom and throw on the hoodie that i daren't wear anywhere else for fear of being chastised for being inappropriately attired and then i try to use facebook surreptitiously without being judged by the other "real" teachers and do breathing exercises so i don't strangle the next irritating imp in class that cuts me off mid-sentence or makes an insipid comment that i can't reply snarkily to

2012-02-06T21:04:00.005+08:00

enjoy this delicious picture i took with the vivitar of a young naked halfling chasing flying shards of water with wild abandon also sometimes when i'm on the bus grabbing onto the handrails i like to admire my biceps

2012-02-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

“Deciding whether or not to trust a person is like deciding whether or not to climb a tree because you might get a wonderful view from the highest branch or you might simply get covered in sap and for this reason many people choose to spend their time alone and indoors where it is harder to get a splinter.”

2012-02-04T21:34:00.004+08:00

frazzled by wei ying's whipping out of the camera early in the morning and her refusal at letting me anywhere near my comb to tame the beast that is my hair

violent ambush from wei ying following which i was tackled to the ground and knocked out of the frame in the following picture (glomped seems to be a suitable verb here)

midway through the process of making oodles and oodles of layers of pancakes and ice cream with maple syrup slathered all over \(^^ )/ everytime i sleepover at wei ying's there is a massive food gorging festival of sorts (not that i mind) and though the food coma that follows after leaves much to be desired i would do it all over again i think

2012-02-03T08:14:00.003+08:00

wow my doddy's bald head really catches my eye in every photo he's in

fags in love oblivious to nicholas behind being magnetized to the walls of the bouncy castle aha

by nightfall the lights in the trees started to scintillate and the tents were a glowing and hearts brimming with love for the couple and for the family all around and although not everyone could get a word in in edgewise because there was so much to speak of and rejoice about, the laughter that abounded and just being together to share in the melange of merrymaking activities filled us with much hope for all that will come to pass in the couple's lives (O:

2012-02-02T22:46:00.001+08:00

screenshot from the pianist with Adrien Brody tottering through the remnants of a graveyard city.. how does one begin to live again after being through so much where do you find the strength after such crushing subjugation of the spirit to whom do you turn to other than the ghosts of people past that fill all the crevices of your mind and leave you nowhere to hide? i felt like crying during the scene Brody did a pantomime on the piano because he was so achingly close to his art that would have offered him some tangible reprieve and solace from the otherwise prodigious annihilation of anything humane

nothing to do with the first part of this post but the lugubrious pensive mood that watching the pianist brought on was fast vanquished when i cleared out one of my cupboards and found all these delightful pranks i bought a few years back SO TRYING THE FAKE BEER ON THE ALCOHOLICS I HAVE FOR FRIENDS WATCH OUT GUYZ

2012-01-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

after trying to make a square with melissa and failing terribly, kian seng and i decided to try shapes that were geometrically less challenging to prove that we weren't complete psychomotor morons

2012-01-28T13:11:00.003+08:00

Recently I've been wanting the world to carry on carrying on without me in it. A goldfish, disparate, slow-dancing around green fronds and a castle in my fishbowl (through the looking glass) not remembering anything having conspired more than three seconds ago so my world would be immediate, nothing more or less. More so now than ever I have words and ideas that limp towards each other only to come close and realize that they are on the end of their tether and fade apart it is as if I can feel my thoughts dying (if I sound moribund I am not, quite the contrary actually).

Meredith Godreau is a wonderful singer and lyricist and these lyrics hit so close to home. I don't think I will ever cease being fascinated by the process of turning feeling to word to song to feeling made possible only by the intimate triangle that is the internal scapes of the singer, the audience and the external, wondrous manifestation that is the song.

Now time, like an ocean, knows tide, like a notion, to toss about the house, and lose inside the couch; and piles of our thoughts run miles in the dark, just trying to get home.

2012-01-24T22:12:00.004+08:00

in lieu of my now permanent residence that is the living room sofa (been doing most of my living in the living room) and the fact that i am sorely lacking in the life that you guys are living this chinese new year because i refused to do any visiting today, i grace you with these two photos of the new area of the house that i have now colonized (i brought my bolster, pillows, blanket and laptop down from my room and built a fort and also established my territory on the coffee table by bringing out the heavy artillery that is my carton of granola and my boxes of kiwis and nectarines to last me through endless hours of television hogging)

here's the painting of a coupla lesbians that i have grown to like that my doddy proudly hung on the living room wall

and these are all the friends i have now SAY HI

2012-01-23T11:31:00.003+08:00

hay guizzz have a photo of my jeijie and i in our new nighties (mine has little reindeers on it and is pink and hers has octopii on it in various groovy dance positions well actually both of the nighties are mine but she ran out of new nighties so i went all Mother Teresa on her and was like "here take my newest cutest nightie ever" and i regret it because pink is really not my colour) to herald in the new year

I don’t really care about the whole Megaupload thing because yeah stringent anti-piracy laws are a bother but that site honestly was awful anyway so it’s whatever, but I will say this:

Whoever already got on Wikipedia and changed all the verbs on Megaupload’s article to past-tense is on top of that shit

also that is joshinhollywood really getting to the crux of the matter here god i love that tumblr

2012-01-23T00:12:00.002+08:00

no really i'm serious i'm going to start biting my lower lip in the hopes that it will swell also one of the worst feelings in the world has to be not being able to poop when you really want to wow why am i telling you guys these things happy chinese new year!!

2012-01-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

i suddenly want a hugeeeee lower lip sumbadi anybadi please jab me in the lips with a needle full of botox TANKS

2012-01-22T13:08:00.003+08:00

Yesterday grandpox got me wondering about where rainbows end and where they begin and if they originate somewhere high up in the sky or somewhere closer, more tangible like an anonymous nondescript puddle of water which would be pretty amazing to see, I think. (hi charlotte i feel like calling your dental clinic after office hours so i can hear your voice recording and laugh and leave stupid messages for you to respond to on voicemail) Also a while back it hit me that I do most of the things I do not because of a why but more because of a why not and there seems to be something slightly amiss about that though I cannot put my finger on what it is exactly.

2012-01-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today I got verbally abused by kids under twelve and then had a tennis ball thrown at my face but then I saw Taisan's chins and knew that life could be worse and the day in retrospect was kind of funny. Also.. my hair-dying was entirely unsuccessful hahaha I completely missed out chunks of hair I DON'T KNOW HOW CONSIDERING HOW LITTLE HAIR I ACTUALLY HAD TO DYE so part of it is dark brown while the remainder is the same unidentifiable shade of hay.

2012-01-18T18:47:00.001+08:00

Darling, I'm with St. Bernard's
And we're scouring the Alps and the Andes
And if they die then it is on my head
They follow paw prints in the snow to my throne, to my bed

We are two ships that pass in the night
You and I, we are nothing alike I am a pleasure cruise, you are gone out to trawl
Return less nets, nothing at all

You're pouting in your sleep, I'm waking still yawning
We're proving to each other that romance is boring
Sure there are things I could do, if I was half prepared to
Prove to each other that romance is boring

2012-01-18T18:31:00.003+08:00

More pictures from Cambodia! The first being a picture of a girl called Nit who peed on the side of the dirt road then pulled up her pants, smelt her hands and grabbed a piece of bread from us then crawled her way up to sit on Ming's shoulders. Last sunday he came to church with a sore on his lips and we conjectured that something conspired betwixt them two that gave him herpes hehe. In the second picture Gladys and I are using our painstakingly carved out high-tech handphone we even hammered a nail into it to make a faux-antenna for good measure and the last picture (of me getting down and durdy with the orphanage's kids ahahaha kiddingz kiddingz we were playing volleyball) is up only because I think my ponytail looks nice and flouncy TOMORROW I SHALL DYE MY HAIR BACK TO BROWN OR BLACK OR WHEREVER LIESE BUBBLE HAIR COLOUR TAKES MY TRESSES~

2012-01-16T21:18:00.004+08:00

amidst the flurry of things going awry at the very least i have music and although these concerts are far-off thinking about them makes me smile and for now that is enough and i do try not to look askance at everything else that happens around me. i realize that for death cab while listening to their songs i veer towards their older songs like title and registration and technicolor girls but for los campesinos! everything goes and i've watched some of their music videos so many times if i close my eyes while listening to their songs i can almost play out the video in full in my mind. top on the list of useless stuff i did today was to take a photo of my third favorite place at home (the first being my room the second being the kitchen) i like how my parents removed the hands from the clock and just kept its non-functional face hanging on the walland second on the non-exhaustive list was taking the time to take a picture of my right foot snug in its pump of furry knitted glory while rushing out of the house today. i have decided to pair these shoes with everything i own even though they hardly go with anything i wear out because my toes feel all sorts of happy when i wriggle them about and they swim about in tufts of wool. racking up points on my other list (the list of useful thingabobbies i did today) would be the completion of How To Read The Air and smelling and reading the first few pages of The Bell Jar and i have great expectations for the latter for who would expect any less from Plath (O:

2012-01-16T13:51:00.001+08:00

it wasnt until i noticed that it was eleven oclock at night and i was panic inhaling cold pasta and old cake that i realized that i do, indeed, still care about what you think of me

2012-01-16T03:41:00.003+08:00

this castigation you have no right
(but sleep eludes me and my mind it is dreary perhaps i do not think straight)

2012-01-16T01:29:00.004+08:00

On the first day in Cambodia we nearly died because a cow dashed across the road and our coach driver jerked to a halt just in time ALSO YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I HELD IN MY PEE AND POOP WHILE SQUIRMING ABOUT IN THE BUNK BED BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE THE DORM AND GET EATEN ALIVE BY MOSQUITOES although I do miss sipping on coconuts while watching the sun set into the endless sea that flanked the paddy fields at the end of a day of housebuilding.

2012-01-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

today while reading i came across the phrase "a frigid sun" and after ruminating on it i finally wrapped my mind around the idea of seeing the sun in such a cold light (ha ha)

2012-01-14T23:05:00.003+08:00

wow seriously? again? FUCK THIS FUCKING SHITHOLE I CALL A HOME MAN WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE

2012-01-14T18:31:00.005+08:00

sometimes like now i worry about myself i just got back from cambodia and the first thing i did after switching on the computer was to play spider solitaire and the next thing i did was to massacre these photos of gladys niran and damo (all donning damo's fashionable glasses) with picnik and reminisce about the night before results where we stayed out till about four am around railmall playing bridge eating lotsa laksa and pretending to be cars on the empty roads. i should probably go do something sensible now like bathe and pack my luggage but here is another shittily edited photo of my doddy eating copious amounts of ice cream (we had a food fest after he picked me up from the airport and i lunged into his arms like a five year old)

2012-01-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

its weird how when shit happens people say "welcome to the real world" as if all niceness is illusory and a farce

2012-01-04T20:56:00.001+08:00

you told your parents in front of the relatives that you're potentially gay I LIKE YOU ALREADY

2012-01-02T21:39:00.003+08:00

number hundred and twenny three under the section SAFETY OF PEDESTRIANS in the official handbook (8th edition no less) for Basic Theory of Driving says that when driving across a muddy section of the road or through a puddle, you should slow down to avoid splashing muddy water onto pedestrians which really tickles me because i remember one morning in secondary school my doddy sped up around the bend and splashed muddy water onto this SJI boy's lovely white uniform and this makes me feel confident about passing the stupid pre-test (gawd its not even the real test yet) tomorrow BECAUSE IF DAD CAN I CAN

2012-01-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

2012-01-02T14:53:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM THE WHITE HOUSE HAHA no one's actually white in that picture hm

i passed the last midnight of two thousand and eleven in the strangest of ways in the back of a car chauffeured by some dude's mother whose house we were previously at (and because laziness got the better of us we chose to stay indoors and play this chinese game that involved lots of thinking and pretty looking marbles instead of heading out to see the fireworks) and then i met up with another bunch of friends and danced alongside a hearty rush of convulsing sweaty bodies to martin solveig's spinning genius and got tired at three something in the morning and sat by the singapore river and had the kind of semi-philosophical a-musing conversations that being awake at ungodly hours induces and had the first hug of two thousand and twelve (sometimes, like today, i like spelling out numbers) and then got owned awfully badly by my mommer when i eventually reached home at around five am in the morning and crashed without bathing because i was so exhausted but happy and i would have done it all over again i think.

in the new year i have one resolution and it is to walk about in an empty swimming pool i don't know why for sure but its just one of the things i've always wanted to do but never have yknow?

smiley photo of my parents in us pre dip-dye (i use this as a measure of time nao) wow i kind of miss the boring blackness of my hair already maybe i should skip going purple and just go back to black (once you go black you can't go back hahaha) also i do not see which features of mine i got from my doddy MEBBE WHAT THEY USED TO TELL ME ABOUT ME BEING PICKED UP FROM A DUSTBIN IS TRUE

2011-12-29T10:18:00.006+08:00

"You should just come Coventry and pay me a visit! Hahaha.
But in all honesty I think I am the main attraction in the uk."

Upon asking a very mature individual what fun stuff I could do in London (I can't decide whether or not I'm excited to go hahaha because my parents said I could go only if I do shittily and probably can't get into NUS) this is the response I got. I actually spat out the water that I was drinking onto my keyboard and started laughing to myself. Also recently I've been listening to Trentemøller and Balthazar and Metronomy quite a bit never thought I'd be into electronica though the latter two aren't really a far deviation from the alternative pop I've become so accustomed to.

I can't believe I've worn these pink flowery shorts out and more than once (their full-fledged ugliness has just hit me) which leads me to think my friends like laughing at me because friends don't usually let friends wear ugly clothes out alright bye I'm going back to eating it makes the time pass quicker

2011-12-28T21:47:00.005+08:00

i took that photo a few days ago and my hair's already a few shades lighter it looks green now kind of and i'm thinking of dying the ends purple when the green fades to blonde and slowly but surely my tumblr is morphing (MIGHT MORPHING POWER RANGERS) into a black and white blog again this is terrible also just now i watched blue valentine and cindy said something that i ruminated on while walking (because running is too intense for my exercise deficient body) basically when we know to or how we are supposed to trust our feelings when they can disappear or change or become nuanced so diaphanously so transiently and i don't have an answer to that or even a decent justification for trusting these slippery fervors but i do and i falter sometimes (too often)

2011-12-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

sometimes my jiejie looks like this but its alright because most of the time she looks like this
also just now on the bus back i was hiding leftover durian in my bag from le great durian feast and it smelt as vile as fart (but tasted great) which is probably why no one sat next to me

2011-12-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

Right now I feel like courage the cowardly dog. But furless and not very purple. Also I am moisturizing my knuckles which I guess I wouldn't be able to do if I were a talking purple dog. Unless there are knuckles on paws.

2011-12-27T12:07:00.003+08:00

not sure if you can see it but alicia is wearing two minscule reindeer ears which were awfully cute and michelle and melissa have mini-lighted santa hats!amanda sang amazingly well that day \(^^ )/
doddy just gave me alot of yomeishu it tastes so bad drinking it made me shiver is that strange also was clearing out my glass cabinet and realized i'd put my nose plug from synchro swimming days up on display SUCH PRIDE (O:

2011-12-25T15:52:00.004+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

HAPPY HAPPY JESUS DAY!!!!! eh why is christmas celebrated in december when jesus was born in april

hahaha IRONNO JESUSDAY IS FUN. apparently Christmas was some pagan ritual then the catholics made it jesusday heh STRONG HISTORY KNOWLEDGE

Still don't know why. Anyway I know kids are cute and all but I think my parents might be pedophiles seriously they make friends with all the kids on the block and like invite them over all the time and GIVE THEM MY ICE CREAM WHICH DISPLEASES ME so I'm up in my room doing important things on the computer and then I go down to get water with pimple cream all over my face and my hair bunned up and I'm either half dressed or in my nightie and then I see a random kid sitting on the sofa and I'm all like OH SHIT and try and scramble up the stairs without losing more of my dignity with each step but recently I've just stopped caring and have started walking around LIKKABAUS

2011-12-25T14:51:00.003+08:00

I was going to spam this place with pictures but I decided not to because there were just too many but here is one of the Santa Monica pier which makes me feel like an artsy fartsy photographer and a picture of an excited chinaman in the air. I love travelling and the way it makes me feel and I feel so thankful because I've been to Bali and US and come January I'll be going to Cambodia and I've managed to persuade my parents to lemme fly to London for the interview at King's and I guess it'll be a good experience regardless of whether I get in in the end or if my parents let me study overseas eventually! (O:

In other news the television at home spoilt so while looking for something to do while eating lunch (maggi mee because there is no food at home and the last thingabobby I picked out of the fridge had mold on it) I actually picked up the newspaper to read wow am impressed with self somebody give me a gold star!! Also in the three days I've been back I've eaten seven packets of instant noodles (I've basically had instant noodles for all the meals I've taken that aren't breakfast) at queer hours of the day and so we ran out and doddy sent me to go buy more from Cold Storage and I know its really unhealthy but they have so many interesting instant noodle flavours that I want to try!! Okes going to continue stalking people on Facebook ciao

2011-12-24T09:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish i looked like francisco lachowski then i could impregnate girls just by winking at them like BAM PREGNANT not that i like pregnant girls or impregnating girls but i figure it'd be kinda funny. for me anyway

2011-12-23T05:14:00.005+08:00

I'M BACK with multi-coloured hair the plane landed at around three but then my parents spent ages buying alcohol from dfs and so we just reached home not too long ago and we called out for kushy and khesa and they came running back \(^.^)/ still haven't figured out when i should sleep so as to minimize the jet lag i think i shan't sleep the rest of today like a true weekend warrior!!

2011-12-17T13:46:00.002+08:00

I love how Vegas looks like a cluster of glittering lights in the middle of the Mojaves desert. Anyway I typed the last post a few days back but forgot to post it heh. Also due to unforeseen circumstances we're not going to the Grand Canyon anymore. (My doddy drove the wrong way on the interstate highway and was too lazy to turn all the way back around by time we realized hahaha)

2011-12-13T14:33:00.006+08:00

It drizzled the whole day today. In the morning like shards of ice the rain hit as I ran from the car- my mommer screaming at me to get back under the umbrella, me pretending not to hear her, my doddy's bald head snug in his beanie and my jiejie protected by the flocculent fur head piece of her coat- past the wide expanse of the coloseum to the Natural History Museum. The second photo of the bones of a fin whale was in my opinion the most striking exhibit in the museum. It occupied a hallway all on its own and the walls were bare save for the beguiling shadows of the whale's backbone that danced along the hallway under incandescent light and reverbecho whale songs on record that jiejie said were extremely creepy but which I found rather cajoling. We all had our favourites my jieje and doddy could not peel their eyes of the resurrected t-rex which took centerstage in the museum in all its bare-boned glory and my mommer expressed a vague disinterest towards all the exhibits except in the insect zoo where she was squealing at every wriggling thing in acute disgust especially the scorpions which I kind of adored. Later on in the day jiejie felt ill so she stayed in the hotel room and slept and mommer stayed to take care of her while doddy and I went gallivanting about hollywood's walk of fame and streamed through Madame Tussauds' wax museum which was really fun.

I'm quite glad our hotel is in the suburban, almost rural outskirts of LA. The streets are emptier the shops less glitzy and glamourized (as compared to 3rd street on Promenade where we went crazy shopping yesterday evening) and the people more reserved and unfriendly but something about their coarse nature gives the area an offbeat charm. Yesterday after breakfast in the morning I begged my mommer to let me run and explore the area on my own but she refused to relent for fear I would be raped murdered robbed etcetra etcetra so she got my doddy to run with me. We ended up walking for the most bit (though I attempted hopping about and flailing my arms about to keep warm) and I got stares from people because I was wearing fbts and a shirt in approximately 7'c weather. I regret not bringing my camera along with me because we came across many charming cafes brimming with warmth (warm people and warm cups of coffee and their own piquant brand of surburban charm) and many instances of astonishing street graffitti and we won't be returning to this area because tomorrow we head for Vegas and when we return to LA in about a week or so we'll be headed to Anaheim instead.

Also yesterday after supper at a nondescript diner owned by a ferociously defensive little Korean lady (but that served up fantastic donuts) something happened that really made me think about everything I take for granted. There was a vagrant sitting on the steps in the blazing cold outside the diner and jiejie gave him a donut because we'd bought one too many, and he held the donut up to God and started praying. Doddy then decided to give him a tenner and the dude did a double take when he realized it wasn't a one dollar bill (all the american bills are of the same size and I guess most people, if they do donate to the numerous homeless out begging on the streets, give him a dollar bill at most) and he grasped at it with both hands and smiled so guilelessly and so credulously it made me sad )O: There are wayyyyy too many homeless people on the street and doddy and mommer try to donate whenever they have spare change on hand but there are just so many of them DO SOMETHING OBAMA!!!!

Its eleven thirty on the 12th of December over here and mommer is rushing me to bed because everyone else is asleep so I think I'll head off now.

2011-12-11T16:54:00.005+08:00

(I took lots of pictures in black and white because I want to make a noir film strip hehehe) Not sure what time it is back in singapore but its one am on the eleventh of december over here the cold is lovely and on the plane it hit me that you could extend your favourite day indefinitely if you crossed over to the right time zones over and over again.

2011-12-10T06:58:00.000+08:00

whoawhoawhoa i wish my hair would fall into place nicely all the timeYAY GOODBYE GOODBYE I WILL TRY TO BLOG FROM AMERICA IF I CAN unless my impending obesity prevents me from getting to available desktops and such!

2011-12-10T01:41:00.001+08:00

today heralded the end of our five day attachment and i feel really relieved because i am fast becoming broke after indulging in food movies kinect more food mainly percy pigs and midnight taxi fares because i've missed the last bus home here are a melange of pictures mostly from todaythis was thursday's lunch which wuz ramen at the ramen championship thingabobby but i was sad and andre was miffed because our egg yolks weren't runny (justin was the only one with a runny egg yolk) but otherwise our broths were all kinds of awesome i kind of want to go back to japan again just for the street food mebbe slurp some noodles on a cold winter's night
wow that black man looks like he needs to take a shit and speaking of shiti am impressed by andre's exquisite neoprint decorating abilities
the virtuoso in the operating room we had the chance to observe (perhaps the shinier your head the more erudite you are at your profession)his really really nice staff that let us jew candy FROM BABIES okay not from babiesthe globe we jay-ran excitedly across the street for because we thought it was possible to enter and jump about in but alas! we could not ok ok am suddenly overwhelmed by a crushing wave of sleepiness it is 1:38 am and i am pretty excited about partying in the usa tomorrow but more so by the immense number of movies i could possibly watch on the flights there and back because sleep is for the weak and weekends are for the warriors goodnight all you young nubile things

2011-12-10T00:27:00.003+08:00

sometimes after i bathe before i change into clothes i comb my hair straight down my back and because it is wet water trickles down my spine and i can feel each drop i like that

2011-12-08T00:33:00.001+08:00

o ya i shut my tumblr down

2011-12-08T00:07:00.005+08:00

Johnny Quid: You see that pack of Virginia killing sticks on the end of the piano?

Pete: Yes.

Johnny Quid: All you need to know about life is retained in those four walls. You will notice that one of your personalities is seduced by the illusions of grandeur - the gold packet of king size with a regal insignia, an attractive implication towards grandeur and wealth, the subtle suggestion that cigarettes are indeed your royal and loyal friends, and that, Pete, is a lie. Your other personality is trying to draw your attention to the flip side of the discussion, written in boring bold black and white, it's a statement that these neat little soldiers of death and in fact trying to kill you and that, Pete, is the truth. Oh, beauty is a beguiling call to death and i'm addicted to the sweet pitch of its siren- that that starts sweet ends bitter, and that which starts bitter ends sweet. That is why you and I love the drugs and that is also why I cannot give that painting back. Now please, pass me a light.

after more kinect we watched rocknrolla (rather justin and i watched rocknrolla while andre died on the couch) and today was a meatfest i had so much pork first in the form of xiao long baos and later in the form of percy pigs okes okes fine not that much pork after all just a whole load of gluten mm yummy

2011-12-07T08:20:00.004+08:00

Because our attachment hours are short but irregular andre and i've found ourselves with many free hours traipsing around orchard road and exploring various cafes and quirky shops and playing dance central on kinect also about the irrelevant first picture of the bird my doddy saved it from being ripped to shreds by khesa and kushy i guess it seems cruel but hunting is instinctive and natural to them though we do try to save the birds whenever we can.

2011-12-06T08:07:00.002+08:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩
I don't quite understand why he didn't fight for her (it is only after typing this out that I realize the irony inherent in what i'm saying considering he lost her after competing in a fighting competition) and why she let a fat guy hold her hand first or why she married a dude old enough to be her father. They were never actually together wow. )O: Otherwise I love how the characters were so gauche and unvarnished and how the film captured a bunch of obstreperous teenagers fumbling gracelessly into adulthood which felt quite relevant I guess considering we're now done with IB and unfortunately I think I might handle my future maladroitly.

2011-12-05T20:32:00.002+08:00

was watching the telly just now and came across the greatest pun alive the tabloids were talking about whether miley cyrus really did drugs and christened that section "pot-y in the usa"

2011-12-05T20:29:00.001+08:00

when i'm on the bus listening to my itouch and it shuffles to a jonas brothers song and i don't have free hands to change songs i die a little inside

2011-12-05T08:31:00.003+08:00

in true loser fashion i can't wear the dress i wanted to wear to the hospital because i couldn't reach behind to zip it up all the way so i guess i'll be ugly today and wear this dress and while putting on this dress i broke the metal chains but used my teeth to bend the metal and reattach the chains again why am i such a badass in other news i scrubbed myself with a cleanser and now smell like lemony dishwasher liquid mmmm and i realise it isn't work if i'm not getting paid forgive the misnomer

2011-12-05T08:16:00.001+08:00

hahaha but i love wes anderson films hmm should proably get changed for work but i don't wanta

2011-12-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

LOS CAMPESINOS! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so what if i can't go for foster the people (laneway and mosaic music festival look set to be pretty damn awesome) also the concept behind the music video for bigger than us by white lies reminds me of the temper trap's love lost (admittedly a much shiddier rendition of it though)

2011-12-04T19:58:00.001+08:00

this sounds strange but whenever i've eaten too many onions my heart starts to hurt

2011-12-04T19:18:00.001+08:00

pigeons over people

2011-12-04T10:18:00.004+08:00

songs that are made better by music videos include but are not limited to white corolla by cassiotone for the painfully alone and crave you by flight facilities

also why are there so many songs about december?

2011-12-04T00:42:00.004+08:00

sitting in front of the computer eating tausuan i don't really hunger for because i had subway and then pancakes for dindin but doddy bought it for me and wasting food makes me feel bad so down into the abyss i have for a stomach it goes. today was not a very good day but the night was nice and i really do enjoy long bus rides home so i'm feeling almost okay now

2011-12-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

the tag on the pair of green pants i bought reads "Ultimate Yoga" which makes me feel like signing up for yoga classes PRONTO

2011-12-02T23:05:00.003+08:00

i sometimes make tenuous links and obscure references to all sorts of things and so i get really excited when people get them where have you been all my life

2011-12-02T21:12:00.009+08:00

FIFAAA

see me leaning for that shot? yeah even though the ball i was aiming for was ridiculously close to the pocket i didn't get it in hahaha psychomotor moron~

a surprise cake for the clownfish (O:

these were from before bali when we went to matthew's house and ice skating the day after! we wanted to watch 23:59 but at gladys's behest we watched puss in boots instead which was a very strange show also

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPOX YOU ARE MAGICAL AND MARVELLOUS AND MOTHER-LIKE AND MATTHEW GRAY GUBLER LOVES YOU▲ THAT IS A PARTY HAT WITHOUT THE FRILLS MUCH LUFF!!

and to all the people who have my facebook password whichever one of you has been checking my messages and notifications STOP IT i feel cheated whenever i log into my account and think i have no notifications (i actually do just that someone checks them before i manage to its like having someone else unwrap your christmas presents) and i'm too lazy to change my password because this one's so convenient to remember and type and i like it )O: SO BE KIND AND CEASE BEING AN ANNOYING TWAT OR I WILL GET THE GOLDEN GOOSE FROM PUSS IN BOOTS TO SHIT A GOLDEN EGG ON YOU

2011-12-02T10:10:00.002+08:00

dear buffet breakfasts i will never love anybody the way i love you ever since coming back from bali i've been eating like a beast because my stomach hasn't gotten used to being deprived of being stuffed with delicious breakfast goodies so now there is much junk food in my body that i ate on impulse get it out get it out

2011-12-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

ARE YOU ACHIN FOR SOME BACON i'm not

2011-12-01T20:02:00.007+08:00

since most of everything is up on facebook i picked a few pictures (some of which are not on facebook for reasons unknown) that capture the gist of the bali trip (sort of)

buffet breakfasts that are dearly missed

teenage love (lots and lots of this)

pretty beaches and skies and gratuitous bikini shots

taisan being forever alone

taisan getting frisky with nic

parasailing!!

starfish(we called it patrick and gave it an afro-do by plonking seaweed on one of its legs)

awesome knick knacks at the ubud market

nic forever trying to touch my ass but failing -.-
bea's camera faces and a slope-y smile
big guns and rapid rafting

tai san being himself

my forever alone moment encapsulated in a picture i took of myself on self timer because nic and bea were far off in the sea and taisan refused to get out from under the shade of the beach brolly i love being able to walk into the sea indefinitely when the waters are shallow

2011-12-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

you know what i really don't get? math rock. and when i win more than two games of solitaire in a row i feel as though SOMETHING IS UP

2011-11-30T13:49:00.006+08:00

my face looks especially round rotund circlelish hmm pretty sure that last one wasn't a word that smile gives me a moustache right there hovering above my lips can you see it my mommer made me take out the braids in my hair because she said they made me look like a homeless fiend also today i went running at macritchie and wore the cohort shirt except my bag straps covered the in so my shirt looked very destructible my face is peeling from all that bali sun like christian bale in american psycho when he peels his herb mint facial mask off THAT'S HOT okay no i'm kidding but maybe not i love being ungrammatical goodbye photos soon punctuation is lame

2011-11-25T20:17:00.004+08:00

some gotye is always good BALI TOMTOMZ I AM SO PUMPED

2011-11-25T08:19:00.015+08:00

my jiejie did my hair and makeup for me even though she had exams the next day so i was really touched (O:

\(^.^)/

leon came over to mwasa's house to pick leeks up and struggled to tie the corsage on and in the end mwasa's mommer ended up doing it for him hahaha

ALMOST THERE RG PHOTO

oh gawd look at their legs so endless~

HEY HEY HEY ITS FAT ALBERT WITH HIS RIDICULOUSLY BENG RED HAIR
eugenia!!! whose dress was my numbah one favourite and she looked so purdy!
i have never eaten his brownies before
NIRATJAN who was really nice yesterday cause he let glady beat him at fifa
lol tanks for the flowers (i realize i'm a shiddy person to get gifts for on valentines cause i dislike flowers they die too easily and chocolates are a no-go)

♥leeks and damo! leeks' dress was my second favourite of the night and she looked really pretty the way her hair was done and all (O:

i think i like ivan's durian hair better but this is pretty cool as well

TOR ZAI!!!!!

vanessa's mommer and jiejie did her hair and makeup for her which i thought was pretty cool!

i really like amanda's smile it is such a happy grin

\(^.^)/ panda with azn eyes!!
NOT SURE WHY WE WERE LEANING BACK
(O:

aiyo my ear

I CALL THIS PHOTO THE PHOTO WITH THE PROM QUEEN I DO NOT LOOK LIKE

I CALL THIS SECTION PHOTOS WITH AUTHORITY

back at mwasa's house we were trying to imitate je sern's forever excited face

mwasaaaa♥

LOL I HAZ A BEARD

MAMA GLADY! whom at my behest got onto the dancefloor and actually had fun

okay i know after post-prom alot of people were like "eww clubbing is gross lets go to church and pray and stuff!" (okes okes a bit of exaggeration on my part but you get my drift) but that's only cause of people who get drunk and crunk and look foolish and do disgusting thingabobbies but otherwise what can i say i like dancing and i guess if you're not drunk or slutty and go with friends you trust its fine by me

2011-11-21T20:05:00.003+08:00

you're the same douchebag you were a couple of months ago its good to know some things don't change and sometimes that makes me feel better about the choices i've made this vindication it pleases me (but all this is so trite)

2011-11-21T09:36:00.004+08:00

some of the rainbow cupcakes that taisan and i baked on saturday! we were so disheartened cause the first batch came out so ugly but then we started eating them and realized they tasted friken awesome and so we were all happy again and slathered the next few batches with tons of frosting and decorated them with gel icing and we tried making a few pirated reese peanut butter cups by dropping a blob of peanut butter on the cupcake before dolloping chocolate icing on them i haven't tried how those taste yet but anything with peanut butter goes

also yesterday before i went out of the house my doddy insisted on taking photos of me because he really likes my flatforms he uploaded the above photo on facebook and liked it and commented, "eclectic chic!" when i got home and saw it and his comment i died laughing

hehehe mommer and jiejie being all glamorous and stuff okok swimming time BAI

2011-11-19T23:55:00.005+08:00

after book shopping (apple picking) i'm really excited about all my buys even though kino wasn't carrying the david levithan books i wanted i stumbled upon the lover's dictionary instead and so far it is quite the dream.

on the bottom right of the photo is the massive pandan cake that mama glady made (O: they painted me watermelon converses and i promised to wear them out one day so i guess i shall and i'm sure my feet will feel bright and happy in them i just need to find matching colored laces first.

This party is old and uninviting, participants all in black and white. You enter in full-blown technicolor, nothing is the same after tonight. If the world would fall apart in a fiction-worthy wind, I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here. Your love is a verb here in my room. You enter and close the door behind you. Now show me the world as seen from the stars. If only the lights would dim a little, I'm wary of eyes upon my scars. If the world would fall apart In a fiction-worthy wind, I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here. Your love is a verb here in my room. Pink tractorbeam into your incision Head spinning as free as Dervish's whirl I came here expecting next to nothing So thank you for being that kind of girl, that kind of girl.

This song was replayed on my ipod the whole day and in my head after the earphones left my ears INCUBUS IS A GOOD BAND STOP DISSING THEM

2011-11-18T13:41:00.007+08:00

so i went swimming and my tattoo got completely obliterated also my butt has multiple tan lines because i use different swimming costumes when swimming on consecutive days such is life (lol post ib problems)

also i tried on my primary sku pinafore and lengthwise it still fits although the belt loop is now relatively much higher WHICH MEANS I WAS DROWNING IN IT AS A PRIMARY SKU KID

and to end it off my minion stepping all over my bio notes (see the kidney?) BYE-O BIO

2011-11-18T07:56:00.004+08:00

songs by douchebaggy bands that i really like include someday by sugar ray

the glorious carefree feeling of not having to worry about sitting for a paper and having to obscure a nugget of information from the deep recesses of my mind

the dreams in which i am most afraid are those in which i lose the function of my hands and cannot hold onto things or when i am crossing roads and cannot move my legs quickly

i kept shooting my teammate in l4d yesterday which makes me thankful about the fact that i am not a guy because i think i would suck at lan

i am however really good at untying shoelaces and perhaps i could find a career somewhere that involves me using this skillset
terracotta warriors intrigue me

2011-11-16T11:28:00.001+08:00

ASTRONAUT from e. garofalo on Vimeo.

2011-11-15T23:09:00.009+08:00

notice the awkward placing of my hand hahaha i never know what to do with my hands in piccas where i am forever alone so i am always happy to have someone to sling my arms around in photos

MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME A MINION AHAHAHA (O:

jiejie and i rode the reverse bungee and while we were screaming in agony my parents were having a good laugh at us maybe i'll screenshot the video my doddy took of us when i'm free and post it here it is 11.09 and I've already received two birthday wishes (LITTLE PLEASURES) the first from damo and the second from yutan :D i know its a silly thing to be worried about but i wonder how many of my friends will remember my birthday amidst their a level examinations also i kicked damo so hard today after econs ended because he was mocking me about bio tomtomz that my leg started hurting hahaha i'm two tyred to blog will post more substantial thingabobbies when i'm not a bicycle goodnight oh dear that was entirely lame i just made myself giggle

2011-11-10T13:14:00.006+08:00

for the life of me i cannot remember the order in which hormones come into play in the menstrual cycle SCREW YOU MENCES also that's an edited screenshot from the brothers bloom because i really like bangbang (the jappo girl on the right) and adrien brody is handsome as always perhaps i will print screenshots from movies i like and stick them on my wall and because kushy is cute here are photos of her slothing around my room and getting ambushed by my jiejie

2011-11-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

HI TAISAN I FEEL YOUR PAIN AS SHOWN IN THE ABOVE PANEL. BUT AS SHOWN IN THE PANEL BELOW,

2011-11-06T20:39:00.007+08:00

oh lordy lordy lord chem tomorrow and english on tuesday i was thinking about it i'll have absolutely no time to study for english after tomorrow's paper and what am i doing i am looking at lovely pictures on tumblr no screw that UGLY UGLY PICTURES i would have been ecstatic with 43 but at the rate i'm going i don't think i'm going to get half that score okay maybe i'll get half that score and slightly more but URGH GARGLE FROTH DROWN DIE i'm going to do so badly and what if i do badly for english???? as conceited as this might sound i don't think my english is bad BUT WHAT IF MY EXAM SCORES DON'T VALIDATE THIS.. STUPID BELIEF AND FAITH I HAVE IN MY ENGLISH SKILLZ?!?!?!? JUST LIKE HOW I SCREWED UP THE EASY MAFF PAPERS i will be very sad like tear up my ib transcript sad GO AHEAD LAUGH AT MY STUPID STRESSED STRETCHED FACE I WANT TO PUMMEL SOMETHING WITH MY FISTS OF FURY and what if i have bad luck on my birthday again and screw up bio NOOOUUUUOUOUOUOUOU then i can't say BYE-O BIO and be all happy-wappy about it sob sob i want to drown in my imaginary tears omg this is what its like in my head every night before i go to bed going to bathe and hopefully calm myself down now keep calm and get this ib shit done with okay okay i can do it i can do it LETS DO THIS SHIT but first bath time and maybe some sleep DID YOU KNOW ?! IS CALLED AN INTERROBANG OKAY NOW YOU DO

2011-11-04T15:39:00.005+08:00

They lead a lifetime that is comfortable
They travel far to keep their stomachs full
They make their living off of arts and crafts
The kind with seashells, driftwood and burlap
They make a deal when they come to town
The Sunday swap meet is a battle ground

Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart

Keeps her photographs close to her heart
Keep the bitterness close to the heart

She loves him more than he would ever know
He loves her more than he would ever show

Kurt Cobain is a magician I love how if you listen to the whole song, no matter the stanzaic order the story told still makes sense.

2011-11-03T22:28:00.003+08:00

Here's a picca of Callum who was playing with my mommer because ogling at cute boys cheers me up. My doddy just told me that its okay to fail but when I do I shouldn't fail to learn the lesson. And that its also okay to feel anguish and pain but its not okay to stay in that dark place of resentment and self pity forever. He put it more eloquently of course and said lots of other stuff too but I forget I just want to fall asleep happy and hope that tomtomz paper goes a million times better than today's one did.

2011-11-03T19:08:00.002+08:00

The way things work out, the way You work.

2011-11-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

After hearing me whine about how some IB papers were in the afternoon which would screw up my nap cycle my jiejie came up with the brilliant idea of chewing gum in order to stay awake and so my parents bought me twelve packs and i have finished three in four days which mean that the remaining nine packs will last me about twelve days which isn't long enough to last me till the end of IB so I will have to ration my monstrous eating of the sticks of gum. I have decided my favourite flavour is the spearmint one followed by doublemint and then by lemongrass and so I have strategically arranged my remaining nine packs such that I'll eat up all the lemongrass ones first and alternate between the packets of spearmint and doublemint and finish off with the spearmint! If you suck on the empty packets like I'm doing in the above picca you can still taste the flavour of the gums sticks really strongly but my mommer chided me and was all like "Why are you sucking on the empty packets that were handled by dirty gruff Malaysians?" and made me spit it out into the dustbin and I was kinda sad for abit but then I went to eat dindin so it was all good. Also taking photos with the webcam has made me realise that my eyebags are irregularly sized and that I like the feeling of my hair after it hasn't been washed for awhile (it just feels softer and I don't know how I came to realise this while taking photos but well I did) and okay I'll stop being gross and go bathe nao MATH TOMTOMZ I AM SO FREAKIN SCARED )O: english went fine and dandy though~

2011-10-30T23:52:00.001+08:00

like conor oberst said, how time can move both fast and slow amazes me

2011-10-29T07:53:00.003+08:00

Like not studying. I go to school everyday with a bag full of worksheets I would like to do tutorials I would like to read and memorize and everyday I come back with more than half of that undone but with a happy heart because I've seen my friends and fooled around and at the end of the day when half the school (save for me) gets forty five and forty four points they're all that will remain isn't it? But I do know that this state of anoesis cannot get me far and my unproductivity is sometimes crippling and I feel like tearing myself apart (you have no idea how close to literally doing this I have come) or doing something anything to feel a sense of urgency the need to study and fill up my days with numbers facts figures but the days just flutter by like nondescript pages of an empty notebook. What scares me is that I am fine with that. Or slowly convincing myself that I am anyway.

2011-10-27T21:10:00.005+08:00

I posted a lot of photos from Diwali initially but deleted them all save for this one. She's my godma and she's a really strong woman and I love her.

2011-10-24T20:01:00.004+08:00

Eros
a passionate physical and emotional love based on aesthetic enjoyment; stereotype of romantic love
Ludus
a love that is played as a game or sport; conquest; may have multiple partners at once
Storge
an affectionate love that slowly develops from friendship, based on similarity
Pragma
love that is driven by the head, not the heart
Mania
obsessive love; experience great emotional highs and lows; very possessive and often jealous lovers
Agape
selfless, altruistic love; spiritual

ludus storge mania mania mania

2011-10-23T19:37:00.005+08:00

movies i HAVE to watch after IB

Heima

Restless

All Good Things

Synecdoche IF I ever manage to find it )O:

The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas

Like Crazy

Winnie the Pooh ahahaha

Blue Valentine

will probably rewatch Candy and Napolean Dynamite as well (also that photo was a screenshot from The Darjeeling Limited yay adrien brody!!) I KNOW THERE WERE MORE MOVIES I WANTED TO WATCH BUT THOSE ARE THE FEW I REMEMBER AT THE MOMENT WHO WANTS TO BE MY MOVIE BUDDY!!!!!

2011-10-23T12:24:00.004+08:00

watch the trailer watch the trailer!! wow i'm such a sucker for good love stories my favourite would have to be Candy which had abbie cornish and heath ledger acting in it and i think everyone should go watch it because it has all the elements of a fantastic movie (love sex and drugs okok i kid about those being the elements of a fantastic movie but seriouslythough it has all of those) and it is poetic and beautiful etcetra etcetra

also i think i missed some deadline about sending ib results to uk universities or summat ho noes what to do what to do not feeling very coherent today but i feel like repeating things so i shall i shall

2011-10-22T14:21:00.005+08:00

i went to cut my hair and the dude blew it all nice and straight but then i ran home in the rain and messed it up and stuff so

now it looks pretty much the same as before i went to cut it. i'm wearing one of my favourite shirts i try not to wear it too much because every time i wash it a particular smell on it fades. it has a really cute monkey on it and the monkey's hands are bandaged and under the monkey it says, "don't juggle chainsaws" which is if you think about it, really useful advice. going to the hairdresser makes me feel conscious about my feet (they stick out from under the cloak they throw over me) because my feet often look like this

that was dried blood I didn't realise I had scratched it so badly till my parents asked where the blood stains on the floor were from and we (they and i because i had not previously) noticed my feet

2011-10-20T21:19:00.003+08:00

Every once in awhile on tumblr I come across a pretty girl whose look completely blows my mind. She is somehow prettier than all the others I've reblogged recently.