Happy horses and happier days that have come and gone I have never been more thankful for the people close to me I feel like a suicidal person blurting out profusions of love before the deed is done.. Tomorrow we cheerlead at Colin's wedding it is strange calling him Colin I have only ever called him kun peng gor gor anyway the secret says that if you want something bad enough you hafta do three things ask believe and receive so dear god i pray that no one that shouldn't walk out of my life walks out of my life and that those who should leave gracefully and that i know who should stay and who should go lest life become a very confusing blob of colour like a melted paddle pop on a hot day AMEN