while napping in the afternoon today i had a nightmare then again it was in the afternoon during siesta time so i shall call it a NAPMARE i strongly feel all napmares should have a mascot like a hamster walking across my mindscape with a black mask and a black cape looking all debonair with a bag of hipster sunflower seeds in his paws so that i know when a napmare is about to begin but i digress! my doddy feng a domestic helper and i were in this really pretty cafe in london that sold pizzas it opened out to a uniform field of magnolias that were all tilted in the same direction which was very strange.. if you let your eyes follow the magnolias you'd eventually stare at abandoned military barracks that just stood there! like giant giant black ladybugs but without any legs. the magnolias grew all around them the only difference being the colour of the magnolias on the field they were pink and yellow those that grew around the barracks were.. sepia toned which was kind of strange too cause the entire landscape was sepia toned tinged grey. doddy tells me he's going to get something and leaves the cafe with feng and feng conveniently leaves his blackberry on the table. so i take it and start camwhoring in the mirror with the magnolias behind me and while looking through the photos i realise that my reflection is not doing the same things i am doing and i get shocked and sit down beside the anonymous domestic helper who is at this point in the dream exuding a creepy evil aura and she starts laughing and on the phone screen i see the words "HAHAHA OK" appear in an sms bubble which is kind of what the domestic helper says sans the OK and i feel a pressure on my head and i wake up now what disturbs me is that whenever i have nightmares the evil voice is always the same it is distinctive and so sometimes midway through the nightmare i actually know i am asleep and dreaming because i recognise the voice but cannot wake up or stay awake long enough without regressing into the nightmare again.

also what sucks is that i feel as though the sepia military barracks juxtaposed against the field of magnolias was one of the prettiest thingabobbies i've ever seen in my dreams and when i woke apart from being scared i was sad that i had to leave something so pretty behind and that by the end of the napmare it had become so tainted and evil and ugly and yet it had not changed at all )O: