While we were sitting on the ground and trapping ants under our empty yogurt cups kushy came waltzing over and close behind was my doddy and while I played with kushy, grandpox and doddy started talking abit about america and where we should go and what we should do which made me all kinds of excited. Tonight I don't feel like doing work so I shall talk about things that make me happy and also things I think would make me happy though I wouldn't know for sure because they haven't happened to me yet.

I feel happy whenever I do math for hours on end without interruption and when I find my eraser from the recesses of my pencilbox (it seems large and endless whenever I poke my fingers around it to look for stuff). I feel happy whenever I go to school in the morning and find the classroom empty and so very quiet. I feel happy when people give me.. surprise back hugs (like hugs from behind) or those rare occasions when my mommer comes in to say goodnight and I'm already in bed and because I'm too lazy to get up and hug her I squeeze her hand and she squeezes back. I feel happy when I see people with nice looking toes and fingers because mine are podgy and bitten and looking at pretty things usually makes me happy. When gust comes over for dindin and my jiejie serves him food and he debones a chicken wing for her because she wouldn't eat one otherwise. That makes me happy too. I think I would be happy if my lover would play connect four with me and wouldn't mind if I cheated. Or if we shared a blanket when we slept and ended up cuddling each other to sleep to keep warm instead. If I fell out of the bed in the middle of the night I think I'd be happy if he didn't wake me up and instead slept on the floor with me so we would both wake up there in the morning. I think the world would be a happier place if people could progress from "falling in like" to "falling in love" instead of plunging head first into the latter. Mm I feel happy when I bite my fingers even though they get red and bumpy after. I feel happy when I read a book and find really pretty quotes that make me go OOH and AAH but silently of course lest people think I'm strange. I feel happy when my hair feels fluffy and so can be spread over my shoulders like a cloak. Okay so it isn't long enough to be a cloak. A shawl? Yes a shawl. I feel happy whenever I tell jokes and people get them or when I can spell big words right without second guessing myself. I feel happy whenever Beatrice braids my hair and I feel happy when I step on dry crunchy leaves.
I feel happy whenever I can end blogposts nicely unlike now this one's gonna be abrupt I CAN FEEL IT