i was just thinking about how in august i'll be able to start the university semester doing what i want with people close to my heart and how great it'll be to be grandpox's classmate again and how the possibility of us being frenz foreva has been strengthened (DO NOT MOCK ME IT MEANS A LOT TO ME TO KNOW MY FRIENDS ARE HERE TO STAY) and i realize how blessed i am. because doing something you want for the rest of your life is important yknow? instead of doing something that you wouldn't mind or something you might even dislike. i dunno. i guess i just feel really overwhelmed and secure in the knowledge that i have a university to go to and something to look forward to. and i honestly feel dismayed knowing that some of my friends who have wanted a particular something so badly got turned down from it and are now left wondering what their next move should be. most of my life, anything i've ever wanted really badly, i've gotten. be it through dumb luck, someone up there looking out for me, or because i happened to make the right move at the right time, life has largely gone my way though admittedly it has chewed me up and spat me out a coupla times, squeezed lemons in my eyes etc. and so now i feel nothing but thankfulness but also can't help thinking how me getting a place means denying someone else of it. wow i feel as though i am being too honest with the internet brief moment of intimacy right there here have a meaningless picture of some jellyhearts i baked goodbye