everytime i'm nearing an exam (especially the few days before, like now) i get all weird and frenzied and can't absorb anything i'm reading and then the day right before the test this strange overwhelming calmness just glomps me and i feel like everything is going to be a o k. sometimes it is sometimes it isn't but that is of little consequence because the hedonist in me makes my reaction to both of the above possible situations, the same.
my mommer's been awful sick of late and so after bathing today she kinda had no strength to raise her arms and dry her hair with the hairdryer. i walked in on my doddy sitting her on a stool and tenderly drying her hair for her the way he used to do for me when i was a kid.. of course then it was not because i didn't have the strength to but because i was a lazy lil fat a$$. anyway. i can't place it exactly but i feel as though i saw something of great importance today. yeah.
